donderdag 9 juli 2020

Ok, first the basics

- Name: Evelyne
- Nickname(s): Madu, Eef, Sparkly
- Birthday: May 2nd
- Sun sign: Taurus (olé)
- Moon sign: Virgo
- Rising sign: Cancer
- Chinese zodiac: Rooster
- (natural) hair colour: Raven (very dark brown/black mix)
- Eye colour: medium brown (reddish brown)
- Height: 166.5 cm  or 5.4(6)
- Your spirit animal: Magpie


Now the reaaaal deaaaaal:

- You can only pick one: paul/dolphins: dolphins
- Which of the Scorpio stereotypes apply to you?
   secretive, can be emo sometimes, kinda jealous and possessive, loyal, kinda vengeful, perseverant, doesn't open up easily
- Favourite colour(s)? Green and pink
- Favourite Hetalia character? Romano, Romania
- Favourite Hetalia pairing(s)? Robul obviouslyyy, spamano, sufin, dennor
- Which Hetalia character are you most like? Romaniaa,  also kinda Denmark and Spain   :D
- Which Gravity Falls character are you most like?  Mabel, and a tiny bit Grunkle Stan
- Gold or silver? silver, even tho I look good with gold
- What do you like about Liverpool (other than Beatles and Paul)? Scousers, the accent, the city, learning about Scouse culture and habits etc
- Do you believe Friendship really is magic? yeeees, especially when it comes to my best friend and close friends  °v°
- Which part of the friendship bracelet do you want? Pink or Blue? the one Aly doesn't want
- Favourite My Little Pony character? Pinkie Pie, although I love Rarity, too
- What My Little Pony character are you most like? Pinkie Pie XD
- Anna or Elsa? Anna
- Miley or Hannah? hmmmm  Miley
- What do you qualities do you value most in someone? kindness and intelligence, I don't mind people who are serious as long as they can stand my annoying and attention-seeking personality. For some reason I'm more attracted (both platonically and romantically) to introverts and reserved people, but I think it's because I'm not and that makes it interesting
- Place(s) you'd like to visit/travel to? LIVERPOOL, Denmark, Romania, Spain, Madeira (even though I've been there), Greece
- What would be your perfect day? being able to go anywhere with my best friend and do fun stuff like shopping, go to nice places to lunch, wander around, take pictures. Or take her to the Efteling :D
- Favourite plush(es) you own? small dragon plush, chihuahua plush hehe, Anna plush, the one my godmother gave me for my baptism (it's a hare). probably others I can't think of right now
- Favourite star sign(s)? well isn't it obvious by now  uhhh Tauruuus
- Favourite dreams you've had so far? the ones where Paul randomly appeared, the one with the kinda made up city (which is a combination of cities in Belgium and some Italian cities), the random adventures of me and Aly (like when she got jealous cuz I saw Paul and she didn't heheheheh)
- Favourite eye colour? green, hazel
- Any languages you'd like to learn? Romanian (currently downloading, haha). Spanish and Danish
- Favourite anime(s)? Bungou Stray Dogs, Ouran, Fruits Basket, Sailor Moon, Free! , Kyo Kara Maoh, Pokemon, Love Live (even tho it got boring and predictable after a while ^^; )   (so many I still need to finish help)
- Favourite cartoon(s)? Wayside, Winx Club, Miraculous
- Dazai or Chuuya? Chuuya
- Favourite Disney Princess(es)? ANNA, Merida, Snow White, Cinderella
- Favourite animal(s)? lions, pigeons, magpies, seagull, squirrels, ringtail maki, black panther (most big cats), fox, dolphins a lil bit, starfish
- Favourite song(s)? love generation
- Favourite music genre(s): 90s dance, dance, reggaeton, Spanish music, Disney music in my fav languages
- Favourite flower? hibiscus, arum-lily
- Favourite Disney and/or Pixar character(s)? Anna, Minnie, kinda starting to like Elsa, Merida, Lumière, Buzz Lightyear, Imelda, Hector
- Cats or dogs? cats
- Achievements you're proud of (both big and small ones)? learning Italian, living abroad in Milan and by myself, trying to overcome my fear of calls/video calls (ok fear is exaggerated but still XDDD)
- Any celebrity crushes? Katy Perry, Antonio Banderas forever, Kristen Bell
- What's the best present you ever received? my best friend (cheeeeeeeesy) trip to Venice and Disneyland, my friends showing up at my birthday party (also cheesy), a laptop/computer
- What college major are you thinking of choosing and why? I studied linguistics, English and Italian. Still love keeping myself busy with languages and studying them and how they work. it's still a small passion of mine
- What do you love about IT? the fact that you can't touch it (except hardware lol) and that it 's a bunch of codes floating around creating these programs and internet spaces that are so useful to people (most of the time), also the complexity of it all (even though, I'll never understand it)
- Favourite instrument? piano, harp
- If you had to live in another time period, which one would you choose? Roman Empire, yass
- Favourite dessert? tiramisù
- Do you like amusement parks?   yeeees, Efteling is probably my favourite one. Plus, I'm a child at heart hehe
- Favourite holiday(s)? Crackmass ;D Halloween
- Pet peeves? people who aren't patient with me, getting interrupted, not being kind/rude/blunt, bragging
- Dream job? working for an Italian company (a store, fashion company idk), and being the person who manages the contacts between Italy and Belgium. That way I'm still in touch with my country without being here all the time
- Favourite Romanian (as in language) song? VRESHTE PLESHTAR numa numa hey, De La Capat, MSD2
- What was the last film you watched in a theatre? Onward
- What's the best compliment you've ever received? "you're really weird...but in a good way!"
- Do you believe in ghosts? yes
- Your best physical feature(s)? long eyelashes, olive skin, thick hair
- Your Hogwarts house (or houses if you're more than one)? Gryffindor, Gryffindor/Slytherin combination
- What's your good luck charm? my bracelets, some keychains I own
- What word do you always mispronounce? pronunciation (oh the irony)
- What's the most amazing place in nature you've been? manyyy, but Madeira  :0
- What was your first impression of me?  fun-loving, friendly, kinda a weirdo (like me)
- Favourite quotes that inspire you?
    Have courage and be kind (Cinderella live-action)
    Attraversiamo (Eat Pray Love)
    To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life (Eat Pray Love)
    Viața n-are buton de rewind să
- When was the last time you felt appreciated/loved/wanted? last Saturday (don't get me wrong, I still do hahah)
- Do you believe in magic? yes
- What makes you happy? conversations with my best friends, friends, going out, colours, sparkles/glitter, etc
- Favourite pizza topping? Tonno
- Advice on what I shouldn't do to Scorpio's (if I don't want to hurt them)? Well, I ain't no scorp
- Favourite pokemon generation(s)/game? X/Y, Sun and Moon
- Favourite pokemon(s)? Chandelure, Woobat, Sylveon, Mimikyu, Dhelmise (lots of ghost pokemon hehe)
- Favourite Pokemon type(s)? Ghost


- Favourite Z-power? Ghost, Fire, Dark




- Name: Alyssa
- Nickname(s): Al, Jun, Aly, Lyss, Cludi 
- Birthday: 7/11/2000
- Sun sign: Scorpio
- Moon sign: Pisces
- Rising sign: Virgo
- Chinese zodiac: Dragon
- (natural) hair colour: Dark brown
- Eye colour: Blue/Turquoise/Gray (?? idfk)
- Height: 163-164.5cm (idfk really)
- Your spirit animal: Cat, deer

Now the reaaaal deaaaaal:

- You can only pick one: paul/dolphins (I love both, but I don’t have a choice ;-;)
- Which of the Scorpio stereotypes apply to you? Mysterious, intense glance/expression, tries to be tough but is actually a softie
- Favourite colour(s): blue, purple, anything pastel, (neon) green, red, pink and blue, any shade of pink, salmon
- Favourite Hetalia character? I’d say either Bulgaria, France, Icey or Nor.. not sure
- Favourite Hetalia pairing(s): other than RoBul.. Hmm, let’s see.. Dennor, BelaLiech, PruHun, PruCan, SuFin, Spamano, England x Japan (idfk the name).. There’s probably more but I can’t remember rn
- Which Hetalia character are you most like? Hmm well according to some quizzes, Icey, Ukraine, Bela and Canada? 
- Which Gravity Falls character are you most like? Dipper 
- Gold or silver? Silver!
- What do you like about Liverpool (other than Beatles and Paul)? The places. I’ve heard of Goodness Gracious garden being one of the prettiest places in Liverpool, but there’s also the Royal Albert Dock or w/e it was called.. Super pretty
- Do you believe Friendship really is magic? Yaaaaaaaas
- Which part of the friendship bracelet do you want? Pink or Blue? Blue, cuz u like pink and I don’t wanna take that away from u 
- Favourite My Little Pony character? Rarity, Sunset Shimmer, Zecora, and Princess Luna/Nightmare Moon
- What My Little Pony character are you most like? Either Sunset Shimmer (in the second EQG movie), or Moondancer
- Anna or Elsa? Elsa, cuz I’m most like her. I like Anna too tho
- Miley or Hannah? Miley, cuz it can’t be Hannah without Miley
- What do you qualities do you value most in someone? Honesty, openness, trust. Idk if you meant this in a psychological way so I said that. Physically I have no preferences 
- Place(s) you'd like to visit/travel to? Ohhh boy that’s a LOT. Other than Liverpool, there’s basically anywhere in Japan (ok but if i had to choose.. Tokyo, Osaka, Akihabara), the nordic countries, Belgium (Haacht, Brussels), Netherlands (Amsterdam, Rotterdam). In the UK I’d say London and Manchester, Leeds, Cambridge and Blackpool..
- What would be your perfect day? Any day in which the douchebag doesn’t bother me and when I’m not depressed. Whether I play video games, chat to u or someone else, it doesn’t matter x3
- Favourite plush(es) you own? I don’t have favourites, cuz I love them all. There’s this one that my bro gave to me once, and it’s a cute lil bear. I also like that one doggo with sparkly blue eyes that I have
- Favourite star sign(s)? Hmm, other than taurus.. I like virgo, pisces, cancer and gemini
- Favourite dreams you've had so far? That one dream where I had a mansion and a huge pool full of dolphins, and that one dream i’ve had of us dressed in sailor senshi outfits while we were in some cute colourful magical world
- Favourite eye colour? Brown, hazel.. I like all of em, but mostly brown and hazel
- Any languages you'd like to learn? Scaws, Dutch, Japanese, Norwegian, Swedish, French (I really want to go further with it, despite how I hate the grammar stuffs)
- Favourite anime(s)? Kimetsu no Yaiba and Dororo are my all-time favs.
- Favourite cartoon(s)? Lots of them, but Strawberry Shortcake made me feel super happy as a child
- Dazai or Chuuya? Dazai (sowwy Chuuya, I still think u great)
- Favourite Disney Princess(es)? Mulan, Pocahontas, Elsa and Rapunzel
- Favourite animal(s): dolphins, cats, dogs, budgies, owls, orcas, dragons (even tho they’re pure mythology.. Or are they?)
- Favourite song(s)? Too hard to say really.. Lately I’ve been listening to video game soundtracks, so idk
- Favourite music genre(s): I don’t have a particular favourite.. Although I do enjoy electronic, rock, metal (here and there), pop, j-pop.. Rarely k-pop but that’s it
- Favourite flower? orchid
- Favourite Disney and/or Pixar character(s)? Maleficent (Idk why I like her so much)
- Cats or dogs? Cats
- Achievements you're proud of (both big and small ones)? Well when I was younger I always attended these digital art contests, and I’ve always won first, second and third place.. Never something below that. Most importantly tho: I graduated highschool, OUTTA that hell lmao.
 I’m proud that I was able to get out of bed today and use the PC too XD
Oh and proud that I’m your friend ^-^
- Any celebrity crushes? Paul McCartney 
- What's the best present you ever received? This phone that I have rn tbh
- What college major are you thinking of choosing and why? I’m still not sure here.. I wanna major in video-game design or programming , one of these.. I’m really not sure. I also thought of IT Business management, cuz it seems a bit easier, but it doesn’t allow me creative freedom at all
- What do you love about IT? Maybe cause it’s so interesting and quick for me to proess.. 
- Favourite instrument? Is synth an instrument? Cuz If not, I’d choose an electric piano or a keyboard
- If you had to live in another time period, which one would you choose? Renaissance, cuz maybe I’d be able to go to Italy somehow and see all the beauty
- Favourite dessert? Brownies, tiramisu, chocolate cake
- Do you like amusement parks? Yeah, even tho I’ve been to one only twice in my entire life
- Favourite holiday(s)? Liverpudlian Cresmes.. Hehe. I’ve always enjoyed Christmas. I love the warm and cozy feeling of it.. There’s just something so nice about it?
- Pet peeves? People making super loud noises as they eat, dogs barking or grooming themselves (idk why I’m so sensitive to those sounds, they make me kind of angry)
- Dream job? Video game developer, hoo boy
- Favourite Romanian (as in language) song? Pe cimpoi … Acele by Carla’s Dreams. Idk why people are saying that it’s about drugs, just cuz of some of the lyrics. I see it’s more about a couple living together and making memories.
- What was the last film you watched in a theatre? It was a comedy movie, but I don’t exactly remember the name..
- What's the best compliment you've ever received? Well, that’s hard to say, cuz all compliments I receive are the best. People have called me amazing, kind, and even breathtaking (haha Keanu Reeves much?)
- Do you believe in ghosts? Yeah, I do!
- Your best physical feature(s)? Hair, eyes, skin colour, hands, height
- Your Hogwarts house (or houses if you're more than one)? Hufflepuff and Slytherin
- What's your good luck charm? Well I have a dream catcher, is that a good luck charm?
- What word do you always mispronounce? In Romanian I always mispronounce “a se impletici” (it means to stumble. Funny cuz I “stumble” while pronouncing this word). In dutch there was jongen, but I think I can pronounce it well now.. I’d say the entire dutch dictionary tho XDD
- What's the most amazing place in nature you've been? I think nature is amazing in general, so I don’t know.. Anywhere that has lots of flowers, rivers, etc. 
- What was your first impression of me? When we first met, I legit thought u were a super energetic, optimistic person. I was wrong about u being super super energetic (like Pinkie Pie levels or energetic), but you’re still full of life despite what’s going on. I really admire that. Also you’re super fun to have around, so that also hasn’t changed
- Favourite quotes that inspire you? "The past does not equal the future."
- When was the last time you felt appreciated/loved/wanted? By my family? Hoo boy, long time ago. My brother was super nice towards me when he came home last time tho, and I felt appreciated af. Also everytime we cheer each other on I feel appreciated and loved too, so thank u x3
- Do you believe in magic? Somewhat? I mean, I do believe in ghosts, and magic kida doesn’t seem to be out of question.. But then again, idk
- What makes you happy? Being appreciated for who I am, having someone listen to my problems and be understanding enough of me.. My favourite series.. There’s probably more but I can’t think of it rn
- Favourite pizza topping? I don’t have a favourite. As long as there are no fruits or fish on pizza (I don’t like em on pizza), I don’t care rly. I might also be picky cuz I like the pizza to be super soft and nice to eat.. And the cheese to be suuuuper nice and melted 
- Advice on what I shouldn't do to Scorpio's (if I don't want to hurt them)? Well, people always call us horny or w/e, which is not true. We just want love, that’s all there is to it. X3 That, aaaaaand don’t call us criminals just cuz some villains/criminals in the movies or series u watched are scorps 
- Favourite pokemon generation(s)/game? Omega Ruby/Alpha Sapphire, Black/White (both 1 and 2), Ultra Sun/Ultra Moon (7), Sword/Shield (8).. I would’ve liked X/Y more if the story and characters were a bit more developed tbh.
- Favourite pokemon(s)? 
Ok, a long one…
All the Eeveelutions (?), Espurr, Gengar, Butterfree, Arbok, Pikachu, Clefable, Ninetales, Golbat, Dugtrio (looks funny and I love how its Alola variant looks like XD), Arcanine, Kadabra, Machamp, Magneton (and all of its previous forms), Cubone & Marowak, Articuno, Cyndaquil, Hoothoot & Noctowl, Togetic, Flaafy, Sudowoodo, Mudkip, Murkrow, Wooper, Misdreavus, Unown, Sneasel,  Corsola, Stantler, Miltank, Suicune, Lugia, Ho-Oh, Ralts (and the evolutions including Gardevoir), Skitty, Aron, Altaria, Lunatone, Claydol, Shuppet (and Banette), Jirachi, Luxray, Driflblim, Lopunny, Glameow, Riolu (and Lucario), Abomasnow, Rotom, Froslass, Arceus, Purrloin, Musharna, Woobat, Lilligant, Zorua (and Zoroark), Gothorita, Vanilluxe, Sawsbuck, Lampent, Reshiram, Fennekin (and its evolutions), Pangoro, Diancie, Litten & Rowlet & Popplio (all their evolutions too), Rockruff, Lurantis, Tsareena, Mimikyu, Cosmog, Poipole, Scorbunny & Sobble (their evolutions too), Nickit, Yamper, Hatterene, Perrseker, Cursola, Alcremie, Eiscue, Indeedee, Morpeko, Eternatus, Zacian & Zamazenta, Pheromosa
- Favourite Pokemon type(s)? Dark, fairy, ghost, psychic, electric, steel and water
- Favourite Z-power? acid downpour, never-ending nightmare, hydro vortex, bloom doom, gigavolt havoc, shattered psyche, blackhole eclipse, subzero slammer and twinkle tackle







FiM: personal edition

Ok, first the basics

- Name:
- Nickname(s):
- Birthday:
- Sun sign:
- Moon sign:
- Rising sign:
- Chinese zodiac:
- (natural) hair colour:
- Eye colour:
- Height:
- Your spirit animal:


Now the reaaaal deaaaaal:

- You can only pick one: paul/dolphins
- Which of the Scorpio stereotypes apply to you?
- Favourite colour(s)
- Favourite Hetalia character?
- Favourite Hetalia pairing(s)
- Which Hetalia character are you most like?
- Which Gravity Falls character are you most like?
- Gold or silver?
- What do you like about Liverpool (other than Beatles and Paul)?
- Do you believe Friendship really is magic?
- Which part of the friendship bracelet do you want? Pink or Blue?
- Favourite My Little Pony character?
- What My Little Pony character are you most like?
- Anna or Elsa?
- Miley or Hannah?
- What do you qualities do you value most in someone?
- Place(s) you'd like to visit/travel to?
- What would be your perfect day?
- Favourite plush(es) you own?
- Favourite star sign(s)?
- Favourite dreams you've had so far?
- Favourite eye colour?
- Any languages you'd like to learn?
- Favourite anime(s)?
- Favourite cartoon(s)?
- Dazai or Chuuya?
- Favourite Disney Princess(es)?
- Favourite animal(s)
- Favourite song(s)?
- Favourite music genre(s)
- Favourite flower?
- Favourite Disney and/or Pixar character(s)?
- Cats or dogs?
- Achievements you're proud of (both big and small ones)?
- Any celebrity crushes?
- What's the best present you ever received?
- What college major are you thinking of choosing and why?
- What do you love about IT?
- Favourite instrument?
- If you had to live in another time period, which one would you choose?
- Favourite dessert?
- Do you like amusement parks?
- Favourite holiday(s)?
- Pet peeves?
- Dream job?
- Favourite Romanian (as in language) song?
- What was the last film you watched in a theatre?
- What's the best compliment you've ever received?
- Do you believe in ghosts?
- Your best physical feature(s)?
- Your Hogwarts house (or houses if you're more than one)?
- What's your good luck charm?
- What word do you always mispronounce?
- What's the most amazing place in nature you've been?
- What was your first impression of me?
- Favourite quotes that inspire you?
- When was the last time you felt appreciated/loved/wanted?
- Do you believe in magic?
- What makes you happy?
- Favourite pizza topping?
- Advice on what I shouldn't do to Scorpio's (if I don't want to hurt them)?
- Favourite pokemon generation(s)/game?
- Favourite pokemon(s)?
- Favourite Pokemon type(s)?
- Favourite Z-power?


zaterdag 4 juli 2020

just...idk

((posting it on here, cuz I don't wanna spam discord with my negativity))


I just want to make clear that: I don't want to make you feel bad about yourself or make you feel guilty. Really the only one to blame is my depression, I guess.
Plus, I need to get it off my chest. I will stay insecure/gloomy if I don't talk about it...I try to be more open since I trust you
and a scorp meme once said: Scorpio values honesty.... soooooooo

so (here we go, I'm nervous cuz I'm scared of hurting u ;; )

like I said, my depression has been giving me a hard time:
ever since this week (I'm guessing it started on Wednesday or Thursday) my depression has been making me feel insecure. Of course it likes to make me feel insecure about things I value or care for: in this case our friendship.
I've told u not too long ago that I don't wanna be overly clingy or spam you (wait, was that yesterday XD). Or I don't wanna come over like I obsess over our friendship. I mean I really enjoy and value our conversations. It is often my biggest support (here comes the cheesy part, brace urself) and often pulls me through when I struggle.

But my depression seems to notice this. long story short, lately it has been telling me things like:
- if you keep spamming your friend you'll push her away
or
- by always going on and on about your negative feelings you'll push her away and eventually you won't have her as a friend anymore

I know I say sorry all the time. and maybe I shouldn't be sorry, buuuut, I do feel bad. Very often I feel bad telling you I'm lonely or feel bad or whatever. Cuz I feel like I'm forcing you to reassure me or comfort me or whatever.

I kinda didn't wanna tell you, because you might think of yourself as a bad friend (you're the opposite, really). Plus I don't wanna go on and on about my mental health being shit. I know you tell me you don't mind but...
I often think about how I miss the me from a few years ago. Who always joked, and pranked u and used sarcasm. she's still here, but at the same time she's kinda absent (why am I typing about myself in third person, hahah?)

but well, I thought about it on my way home and it kept bugging me

so, here's your honesty heh

One day I'll be better
I hope

PS: I blame cancer season/being cancer rising



yours sincerely,
someone who's emotionally a water sign